Janelle and I had a really good talk today - via Facebook chatting - about relationships.
She popped a question about why I wasn't in a relationship now.. and to be quite honest, I didn't know how to answer.
Am I refusing to be in a relationship?
Am I actively looking?
Single? Ready to mingle?
Or do I just don't give a crap?
I really don't know. But it just feels lonely. I'll be the first to admit that being single has it's highs and lows. And the lows surely do suck. When 80% of your friends are in relationships you begin to wonder what the hell is wrong with you.
Like the bridesmaid whose friends have all wed except her, I feel her pain and her inquiries.
I sure do have a sour spot for girls. I tend to be overcritical of them, and I tend to hold them in poor light. It's hard to come by brains and beauty is what I told Janelle... it really it. I want to have a down to earth gal who could care less about the things I do - though to a certain extent of course.
I've been watching a lot of Korean drama's lately, and one that struck me hard was a particular one where the hero didn't get the girl, his best friend was able to walk away with his "angel". And it seems as if I'm always dealt the poor hands. Like, recently, playing Poker online is total bullshit! I have been getting shitty ass hands, and I think it reflects my relationship with my friends.
I don't know what it is, but this summer feels as if I'm losing more than gaining, though I may be losing the fake friends and gaining real friendships. As many before me have said, "You find out who your real friends are through shared interests." That's definitely true. But does that leave out spontaneous relationships? Does that leave out the opposites attract law?
As I'm becoming more indulged with myself such as working out more often, pursuing military ideologies, and striving to become more bookwormish, I have lost many friends... and of course, potential girlfriends.
Talking to Janelle sort of opened my eyes. I'm extremely flirty... but I'm afraid of commitment... really? For once, my smart mouth didn't have a response. Because it's true. Why am I so afraid of commitment? Am I afraid of being hurt? Am I afraid of taking chances? One exercise that was recommended was that when I passed by a really cute looking girl, I should lock eyes and give a smile...
Though, that seems like an impossible task. Because the instant I spot a above-average looking girl, I immediately shy away (WOW! ME?!) and diverge my gaze elsewhere. This could reflect upon my views on relationships. I tend to shy away from commitment or even perhaps going beyond the whole 'dating' classification.
Truth be told, I don't want to date multiple girls to try to find the right one. I swear one day, this girl I'm talking about so much will pop out right under me... or perhaps I should stick to watching Wongfu videos. Hey? Who knows? I might star in my own exclusive role as the hero.
I consider myself a Nice Guy, with the emphasis on the 'ICE' part of Nice. Because man, I am DAMN COLD to girls. Haha... I'm going to make a pact with myself right now... come Fall semester, I'm going to try MY BEST to find someone. Whether she is miss perfect or not. I'm determined to put myself out there. I love meeting new people, and I love conversating with people.
To boil this down to a point.
Hello Ladies,
My name is Alan Duong, I am 19 years young, I love to...
Well, to be honest. I love you.
And in other words, darling, kiss me.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Breakfast at Tiffany's!
http://www.mapmyrun.com/run/united-states/ca/san-jose/772124867380026986
No, not really. This is my new passion. Maybe I should've done cross country and more running events in track. I'm averaging a good 5-6 minutes a mile now.
No, not really. This is my new passion. Maybe I should've done cross country and more running events in track. I'm averaging a good 5-6 minutes a mile now.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Misguided... Obnoxious??
I told a friend (or someone I thought was a friend) that she - we'll call her Hi-C - that in a certain picture she was performing something incorrectly.
Being the person I am, I noticed how the picture caption mentioned that Hi-C had "learned" a certain skill. Now that's all handy dandy right? But I took a closer look at the picture, and it was obvious something was wrong. So I straight up left a comment on that picture that stated what was wrong, and why. As you all know me, I'm extremely sarcastic, but in all of my sarcasm, I put out valuable information.
However, it turns out that Hi-C woke up on the wrong side of the bed and perhaps didn't take my "educating" lightly. People, seriously, when I pass out information, I'm not doing it to be a dick, I'm doing it so you can improve on your game! Jesus Christ lord heavens!! Hallelujah!!
So, I wanted to share a bit of the conversation with my viewers because it is absolutely hilarious. Of course I will block out the name because I believe in personal privacy.
Again, I offered criticism on something I was familiar with. Nowhere in that comment did I say something like, "you suck at life, you can't play get the fuck out". I told her exactly how I would have told anyone. "You're doing it wrong, here's why, and here are possible solutions". Of course, in my own manner... which comes off in a very frank mannerism; and that's just me.
3) Archaic. exposed or liable to harm, evil, or anything objectionable.
Really? Need I say more? You're kidding me right?
4) Obsolete. liable to punishment or censure; reprehensible.
O.K. this is absolutely ridiculous. So me giving Hi-C a statement of constructive criticism is obsolete? I'm liable for punishment or censorship? And I thought we lived in a 1/3 free world society here!!!
Alright ladies and gentlemen, I think I've broken it down quite a lot here. I mean I had to tell Hi-C how ridiculous her accusations were. I mean, calling my statement obnoxious? I had to ask her if she was just pulling words out of her ass to throw insults at me... she claims no, and that I had to get a life.
Hm... well, gosh darnit. She made my day absolute terrible, horrible, no good, and very bad!!! And that's a lot!!
Enjoy.
P.S. Hi-C, if you read this, and are extremely angry at me for posting this. I hope you know that I kept this private. Just for your sake. You're probably telling me to get a life and blog about something else rather than people. To be honest, I'm not blogging about you, because you are absolutely immature at the moment.
P.S.S. You may say me blogging is more immature. Perhaps, but I'll leave the judgment of your character out of this and just analyze what you said to me directly... which was the obnoxious part. However, if I did infact attack your character, please do tell me and I will perform seppuku to ensure that you still posess your "dignity"... or what's left of it anyways.
Cheers!
Being the person I am, I noticed how the picture caption mentioned that Hi-C had "learned" a certain skill. Now that's all handy dandy right? But I took a closer look at the picture, and it was obvious something was wrong. So I straight up left a comment on that picture that stated what was wrong, and why. As you all know me, I'm extremely sarcastic, but in all of my sarcasm, I put out valuable information.
However, it turns out that Hi-C woke up on the wrong side of the bed and perhaps didn't take my "educating" lightly. People, seriously, when I pass out information, I'm not doing it to be a dick, I'm doing it so you can improve on your game! Jesus Christ lord heavens!! Hallelujah!!
So, I wanted to share a bit of the conversation with my viewers because it is absolutely hilarious. Of course I will block out the name because I believe in personal privacy.
GRR I'M ANGRY
bletof6 (8:50:48 PM) : obnoxious?
bletof6 (8:50:49 PM) : LOL
bletof6 (8:50:55 PM) : being informative is obnoxious?
So this is when I couldn't stop laughing. Being informative to someone is being obnoxious? Let's look at a few definitions here shall we?
From our very own www.dictionary.com
Now let's work on the first definition which states that...
1) obnoxious is highly objectionable or offensive.
Alright, so let's start breaking down the first definition here. I told Hi-C that her bridge was wrong, she shouldn't have used that certain bridge because of the cue positioning, and many other reasons that justified why I would even begin to possibly place that suggestion to her.
So, the definition clearly states that I would have to be highly objectionable or offensive. So let me ask you this my readers, is informing someone THROUGH a picture comment offensive? Sure I placed my criticism on the reasons why NOT to use a certain bridge, but I followed it up with reasons why not to use it, and possible solutions. So am I wrong to suggest a better and more efficient way of playing a game?
Because, shit... If I am, God kill us all! For we have all sinned! Especially personal trainers, oh my god, even professional athletes.. and may I say it? Perhaps our own parents have failed us! Albeit the information was posted -or rather queued for approval - on a public website. Whose to say it had to be highly offensive and objectionable?
Poor taste? O.k. let's break that down. Poor taste... ok. So, let's assume a friend of yours posted a picture of something you... for lack of a better word... are somewhat of an expert at. Hm? And you witness your friend... let's say posting a picture of their golf swing and you see this and are totally appalled.
Being the friend you are... you'd like to see them correct that, no? Would it be poor taste to post a comment offering constructive criticism TO A FRIEND? And be considered poor taste? You answer that question ladies and gentlemen.
Moving on to the second definition
2) annoying or objectionable due to being a showoff or attracting undue attention to oneself: an obnoxious little brat.
Once again, let's break this down ladies and gentlemen. Pulling from the previous example, am I SHOWING OFF? or attracting undue attention to myself by saying "hey, you're doing this wrong, here's why, and possible solutions"
That's being a showoff and attracting undue attention to oneself? If that's the case, what about coaches criticizing your performance? your attitude? your every goddamn move? Oh, O.K., some of you might argue that "that's their job"... hm, O.K., instead of me ripping your heads off and skull fucking you, I'll offer another insight to this dilemma.
So, if someone's job title doesn't say "coach" or something similar to that, if they offer constructive criticism or even a remote sense of correction, they're obnoxious? If that's the case, the word "peer" and "criticism" shouldn't even belong in the same universe! Sure, I know I'm not an expert at shooting pool, but I AT LEAST know that there are correct bridge positions you should use in certain situations. And because I offer criticism that's nowhere near insulting, that's considered obnoxious? I mean, am I selling myself here? Or is this a good time to tell me my parents are dead?
So this is when I couldn't stop laughing. Being informative to someone is being obnoxious? Let's look at a few definitions here shall we?
| 1. | highly objectionable or offensive; odious: obnoxious behavior. |
| 2. | annoying or objectionable due to being a showoff or attracting undue attention to oneself: an obnoxious little brat. |
| 3. | Archaic. exposed or liable to harm, evil, or anything objectionable. |
| 4. | Obsolete. liable to punishment or censure; reprehensible. |
From our very own www.dictionary.com
Now let's work on the first definition which states that...
1) obnoxious is highly objectionable or offensive.
Alright, so let's start breaking down the first definition here. I told Hi-C that her bridge was wrong, she shouldn't have used that certain bridge because of the cue positioning, and many other reasons that justified why I would even begin to possibly place that suggestion to her.
So, the definition clearly states that I would have to be highly objectionable or offensive. So let me ask you this my readers, is informing someone THROUGH a picture comment offensive? Sure I placed my criticism on the reasons why NOT to use a certain bridge, but I followed it up with reasons why not to use it, and possible solutions. So am I wrong to suggest a better and more efficient way of playing a game?
Because, shit... If I am, God kill us all! For we have all sinned! Especially personal trainers, oh my god, even professional athletes.. and may I say it? Perhaps our own parents have failed us! Albeit the information was posted -or rather queued for approval - on a public website. Whose to say it had to be highly offensive and objectionable?
Poor taste? O.k. let's break that down. Poor taste... ok. So, let's assume a friend of yours posted a picture of something you... for lack of a better word... are somewhat of an expert at. Hm? And you witness your friend... let's say posting a picture of their golf swing and you see this and are totally appalled.
Being the friend you are... you'd like to see them correct that, no? Would it be poor taste to post a comment offering constructive criticism TO A FRIEND? And be considered poor taste? You answer that question ladies and gentlemen.
Moving on to the second definition
2) annoying or objectionable due to being a showoff or attracting undue attention to oneself: an obnoxious little brat.
Once again, let's break this down ladies and gentlemen. Pulling from the previous example, am I SHOWING OFF? or attracting undue attention to myself by saying "hey, you're doing this wrong, here's why, and possible solutions"
That's being a showoff and attracting undue attention to oneself? If that's the case, what about coaches criticizing your performance? your attitude? your every goddamn move? Oh, O.K., some of you might argue that "that's their job"... hm, O.K., instead of me ripping your heads off and skull fucking you, I'll offer another insight to this dilemma.
So, if someone's job title doesn't say "coach" or something similar to that, if they offer constructive criticism or even a remote sense of correction, they're obnoxious? If that's the case, the word "peer" and "criticism" shouldn't even belong in the same universe! Sure, I know I'm not an expert at shooting pool, but I AT LEAST know that there are correct bridge positions you should use in certain situations. And because I offer criticism that's nowhere near insulting, that's considered obnoxious? I mean, am I selling myself here? Or is this a good time to tell me my parents are dead?
Again, I offered criticism on something I was familiar with. Nowhere in that comment did I say something like, "you suck at life, you can't play get the fuck out". I told her exactly how I would have told anyone. "You're doing it wrong, here's why, and here are possible solutions". Of course, in my own manner... which comes off in a very frank mannerism; and that's just me.
3) Archaic. exposed or liable to harm, evil, or anything objectionable.
Really? Need I say more? You're kidding me right?
4) Obsolete. liable to punishment or censure; reprehensible.
O.K. this is absolutely ridiculous. So me giving Hi-C a statement of constructive criticism is obsolete? I'm liable for punishment or censorship? And I thought we lived in a 1/3 free world society here!!!
Alright ladies and gentlemen, I think I've broken it down quite a lot here. I mean I had to tell Hi-C how ridiculous her accusations were. I mean, calling my statement obnoxious? I had to ask her if she was just pulling words out of her ass to throw insults at me... she claims no, and that I had to get a life.
Hm... well, gosh darnit. She made my day absolute terrible, horrible, no good, and very bad!!! And that's a lot!!
Enjoy.
P.S. Hi-C, if you read this, and are extremely angry at me for posting this. I hope you know that I kept this private. Just for your sake. You're probably telling me to get a life and blog about something else rather than people. To be honest, I'm not blogging about you, because you are absolutely immature at the moment.
P.S.S. You may say me blogging is more immature. Perhaps, but I'll leave the judgment of your character out of this and just analyze what you said to me directly... which was the obnoxious part. However, if I did infact attack your character, please do tell me and I will perform seppuku to ensure that you still posess your "dignity"... or what's left of it anyways.
Cheers!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Bruno, views on gays.
Well, tonight, I finished watching Bruno with Tommy and Peewe and to be honest, the film was not very "fascinating", more or less, it was just pure shtick humor... however it was ingeniously hilarious. Anyone who watched Borat and found that extremely funny, will find this movie even more hilarious. So please, take the time to watch it, it's great.
My review won't really be on the movie itself, but the content it was based around.
The Gay Issue:
So obviously, Bruno is gay, and to be honest, this movie is NOT ANTI-GAY.
So please let me explain why. My reaction to the whole "gay" thing is that... well obviously Bruno is gay, and he does "gay" things, so to speak... but like the stereotype of Borat, like any stereotype... and well it is what it is.
This is probably because I've lived in California my entire life with small blocks of it being spent in the South.
I didn't find that him doing "gay" things I.E. enjoying sex with men were the main projection of the movie. I found Bruno to be weird not because he was gay... but because he was JUST WEIRD.
I mean, he was wrapped up in this idea of being famous throughout the world and his never-ending stride towards that goal. I mean, Adidas does say Impossible Is Nothing... but we seriously have to look at reality here... Bruno.
You know, him (Bruno) being gay was only a small part of the movie, the vanity of the man -- the idea that it's all about him and his strive for stardom, his thirst for attention.. you know, that's what he values more than anything in his life... that's what the movie's all about.
Even the fact that Bruno finds homophobic people and he manipulates that in a weird way plays on things... you know even more than Borat.
Such as when Borat is in that rodeo and was saying so many things that were so extreme about America that upset people, you know like saying things "anti-American".. and the idea was just less complexed in the movie Bruno like the UFC match where everybody is tearing their heads off and shouting how they love being heterosexual and turning it into a gay event. Because the whole process of professional fighting/wrestling is so freaking gay, you know it's a bunch of overbuilt men in tiny little trunks throwing themselves ontop of each other in some choreographed dance.
To take a look at this in another light, all of these stereotypes of gays and their "activities"... are just typified in these so-called "heterosexual" hobbies! That's the interesting irony of it all.
America is so tied up on how they perceive the "gays" that they really forget how hypocritical they are, especially the way they "claim" gays act.
The bottom line of the movie is... it's not ANTI-GAY.. in my opinion it's really just bringing light to an issue that's often shunned upon. And really, the idea of the movie is to really put the shock factor into the audience you know? Hoping the audience will ask themselves "did he actually do that shit?"
Because Sacha Baron's goal is to shock people with crazy antics, just look at his movies!
Overall, I highly recommend this movie to everyone, it's just straight schtick humor.
My review won't really be on the movie itself, but the content it was based around.
The Gay Issue:
So obviously, Bruno is gay, and to be honest, this movie is NOT ANTI-GAY.
So please let me explain why. My reaction to the whole "gay" thing is that... well obviously Bruno is gay, and he does "gay" things, so to speak... but like the stereotype of Borat, like any stereotype... and well it is what it is.
This is probably because I've lived in California my entire life with small blocks of it being spent in the South.
I didn't find that him doing "gay" things I.E. enjoying sex with men were the main projection of the movie. I found Bruno to be weird not because he was gay... but because he was JUST WEIRD.
I mean, he was wrapped up in this idea of being famous throughout the world and his never-ending stride towards that goal. I mean, Adidas does say Impossible Is Nothing... but we seriously have to look at reality here... Bruno.
You know, him (Bruno) being gay was only a small part of the movie, the vanity of the man -- the idea that it's all about him and his strive for stardom, his thirst for attention.. you know, that's what he values more than anything in his life... that's what the movie's all about.
Even the fact that Bruno finds homophobic people and he manipulates that in a weird way plays on things... you know even more than Borat.
Such as when Borat is in that rodeo and was saying so many things that were so extreme about America that upset people, you know like saying things "anti-American".. and the idea was just less complexed in the movie Bruno like the UFC match where everybody is tearing their heads off and shouting how they love being heterosexual and turning it into a gay event. Because the whole process of professional fighting/wrestling is so freaking gay, you know it's a bunch of overbuilt men in tiny little trunks throwing themselves ontop of each other in some choreographed dance.
To take a look at this in another light, all of these stereotypes of gays and their "activities"... are just typified in these so-called "heterosexual" hobbies! That's the interesting irony of it all.
America is so tied up on how they perceive the "gays" that they really forget how hypocritical they are, especially the way they "claim" gays act.
The bottom line of the movie is... it's not ANTI-GAY.. in my opinion it's really just bringing light to an issue that's often shunned upon. And really, the idea of the movie is to really put the shock factor into the audience you know? Hoping the audience will ask themselves "did he actually do that shit?"
Because Sacha Baron's goal is to shock people with crazy antics, just look at his movies!
Overall, I highly recommend this movie to everyone, it's just straight schtick humor.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Cherry
So today I finally finished the first step of lowering my car... finally purchasing some coilovers. I've been talking with this dude for the past week trying to bargain for the best possible price.
I find myself really careful with buying stuff. When I want something purchased, I seriously give it a good 2-3 weeks to analyze the pros and cons and such and such...
I'm way too conservative with my money.
I find myself really careful with buying stuff. When I want something purchased, I seriously give it a good 2-3 weeks to analyze the pros and cons and such and such...
I'm way too conservative with my money.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
So Far
So... I just got another epiphany.
I need more diverse friends.
I am tired of having friends who bail out, shut out, forget, ditch, and so many other words I do not have the time to type.
I am tired of having friends who are all in relationships... because it sucks when I'm the only one who doesn't have a significant other, but everyone else does. Because they automatically qualify for "time well spent"
It never really occurred to me because I'm usually so damn busy to hang out on a regular basis... as if there were anything to do anyways. But I need to get new friends because I'm so damn tired of being disappointed by people.
This camping trip that I'm planning? I'm going to cut down the invitation because I know people will bail on me the last minute, and to be honest... I'm not surprised anymore.
Every time someone calls me or IMs me or texts me saying - along the lines of - "Sorry I can't go" I don't even flinch anymore. I'm so fucking used to everyone bailing out it's ridiculous. Either they're too lazy, or too exhausted, or just plain don't give a fuck about anything. Albeit, I may not notify you guys a week beforehand.. BUT WHEN I DO... it's a no-go.
Now friends with significant others, I don't blame you guys. Have all the fun you guys want, I have nothing against you guys except the fact that you guys are happy, and I'm not. Let this be known:
I
FUCKING
HATE
COUPLES
RIGHT
NOW
and in general, relationships, because it fucks me in the ass so many times i've become immune.
My family isn't doing shit, my sister has her boyfriend, my mom has work.. and my dad... is just being dad.
This is a pure rant, so I dont expect any backlash when I say I fucking hate my friends. Scratch that, I don't really have friends, I'm more of like the after-thought of "Oh hey, let's invite Alan" or "Are you going to Alan's thing? Nah"
Middle finger, and cheers. Friends? What friends? I mostly see people who seem as if they don't give a fuck.
Granted, this is 4th of July... some of you may not consider this big.. but I do. I've missed 4th of July 3 years straight, I've yet to spend quality time with friends because of the Army, or summer school.. and obviously 4th of July is a huge event in America, so you'd expect someone to come with a tentative plan.
Yet... when shit hits the fan, people go running away with their heads cut off. Plans broken, promises laughed at... it's disgusting what can happen. I'm so damn annoyed by the fact that most of the friends I considered friends, are not friends at all, in fact, I consider them acquaintences. It's fucking ridiculous!
I've missed so many chances to be with my friends, yet when I'm finally home and able to participate, it feels like a fucking joke!
I hate to bring this up as well, but the reason why I cherish American holidays so much is because of the fact that I'm in the military, and I HATE.. ABSOLUTELY HATE to pull this card out. But I like celebrating the fact that I will eventually play a part in this celebration, and to have my friends brush it off, or pass it as a insignificant notion of 'who gives a fuck', it's so fucking retarded.
I don't want to get drunk
I don't want to party and play beer pong
I want to celebrate things as they were meant to be celebrated! I hate being invited to parties where all of my friends drink... because I don't drink.
I can't believe I'm going to celebrate my first 4th of July home in 3 years... at home. literally. But you know what? I feel so damn optimistic, I'd rather go somewhere alone than hang out with "friends" as if they were able-body to attend anyways.
To boil this down to a point. Fuck friends. Because honestly, I feel as if in this day and age, finding real friends is trying to find gold in your kitchen sink. It's impossible.
Perhaps I have this all wrong, and maybe I am the problem? Maybe no one wants to hang out with me because of my attitude? Well, if that's the case, I fully accept that, and will gladly move on to other opportunities to meet new friends. Although, I'm pretty sure my new friends, if I were to ever find any... would fuck me in the ass as well.
So I currently have a HUGE animosity against people who consider themselves my friend, because it's bullshit. Though, you may say to yourself that I'm not worth having as a friend, that's fine, but fuck you.
Asshole. Happy 4th of July everyone! Please be safe today.
I need more diverse friends.
I am tired of having friends who bail out, shut out, forget, ditch, and so many other words I do not have the time to type.
I am tired of having friends who are all in relationships... because it sucks when I'm the only one who doesn't have a significant other, but everyone else does. Because they automatically qualify for "time well spent"
It never really occurred to me because I'm usually so damn busy to hang out on a regular basis... as if there were anything to do anyways. But I need to get new friends because I'm so damn tired of being disappointed by people.
This camping trip that I'm planning? I'm going to cut down the invitation because I know people will bail on me the last minute, and to be honest... I'm not surprised anymore.
Every time someone calls me or IMs me or texts me saying - along the lines of - "Sorry I can't go" I don't even flinch anymore. I'm so fucking used to everyone bailing out it's ridiculous. Either they're too lazy, or too exhausted, or just plain don't give a fuck about anything. Albeit, I may not notify you guys a week beforehand.. BUT WHEN I DO... it's a no-go.
Now friends with significant others, I don't blame you guys. Have all the fun you guys want, I have nothing against you guys except the fact that you guys are happy, and I'm not. Let this be known:
I
FUCKING
HATE
COUPLES
RIGHT
NOW
and in general, relationships, because it fucks me in the ass so many times i've become immune.
My family isn't doing shit, my sister has her boyfriend, my mom has work.. and my dad... is just being dad.
This is a pure rant, so I dont expect any backlash when I say I fucking hate my friends. Scratch that, I don't really have friends, I'm more of like the after-thought of "Oh hey, let's invite Alan" or "Are you going to Alan's thing? Nah"
Middle finger, and cheers. Friends? What friends? I mostly see people who seem as if they don't give a fuck.
Granted, this is 4th of July... some of you may not consider this big.. but I do. I've missed 4th of July 3 years straight, I've yet to spend quality time with friends because of the Army, or summer school.. and obviously 4th of July is a huge event in America, so you'd expect someone to come with a tentative plan.
Yet... when shit hits the fan, people go running away with their heads cut off. Plans broken, promises laughed at... it's disgusting what can happen. I'm so damn annoyed by the fact that most of the friends I considered friends, are not friends at all, in fact, I consider them acquaintences. It's fucking ridiculous!
I've missed so many chances to be with my friends, yet when I'm finally home and able to participate, it feels like a fucking joke!
I hate to bring this up as well, but the reason why I cherish American holidays so much is because of the fact that I'm in the military, and I HATE.. ABSOLUTELY HATE to pull this card out. But I like celebrating the fact that I will eventually play a part in this celebration, and to have my friends brush it off, or pass it as a insignificant notion of 'who gives a fuck', it's so fucking retarded.
I don't want to get drunk
I don't want to party and play beer pong
I want to celebrate things as they were meant to be celebrated! I hate being invited to parties where all of my friends drink... because I don't drink.
I can't believe I'm going to celebrate my first 4th of July home in 3 years... at home. literally. But you know what? I feel so damn optimistic, I'd rather go somewhere alone than hang out with "friends" as if they were able-body to attend anyways.
To boil this down to a point. Fuck friends. Because honestly, I feel as if in this day and age, finding real friends is trying to find gold in your kitchen sink. It's impossible.
Perhaps I have this all wrong, and maybe I am the problem? Maybe no one wants to hang out with me because of my attitude? Well, if that's the case, I fully accept that, and will gladly move on to other opportunities to meet new friends. Although, I'm pretty sure my new friends, if I were to ever find any... would fuck me in the ass as well.
So I currently have a HUGE animosity against people who consider themselves my friend, because it's bullshit. Though, you may say to yourself that I'm not worth having as a friend, that's fine, but fuck you.
Asshole. Happy 4th of July everyone! Please be safe today.
Changes
So... I had an epiphany.
I need better friends.
Kinda like the ones that don't bail out on you all the time. Time to walk the road to discovery.
I need better friends.
Kinda like the ones that don't bail out on you all the time. Time to walk the road to discovery.
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